Recently I have taken some time to read a lot of other blogs.
I did this with the belief that I don’t know everything there is to know about this lifestyle, and that I was open to learning more.
I take this learning seriously, especially when it comes to my role as a sub.
I found a recurring theme in many (Not all) of the blogs that was confusing and disturbing to me.
The theme was “My relationship with Master is so HARD”
Again, I want to say that I don’t know everything about the lifestyle, I don’t claim to be an expert on being a submissive. I just don’t understand this theme because, well, my relationship with Maestro in NOT hard.
We have very few disagreements, and when there is a decision to be made, we discuss it and he decides what is best for us. Does that mean that we always agree on his decisions? No. Usually we do, but when we don’t I have to trust that he is making his decision based on good information, and thought of what is best for the family. If I get new information to further dispute the decision he made, he always hears me, though that doesn’t always mean that he will change his mind.
He trusts me to advise him, he trusts my opinions. He knows that we share our goals, so I will also make decisions based on facts.
We don’t have problems because we don’t have power struggles. I am not stupid, he doesn’t think for me, but he is the head of our house. We have clear lines about our expectations of each other and ourselves.
Our power exchange is not “play”, we don’t have “scenes”, I don’t go from “wife role” to “sub role”, this is our life! We LIVE our PE, there are only two roles, his as Maestro and mine as his sub.
That is not to say that I feel like less of a person. He never makes me feel that way. He builds me up as his sub (and as a person in general) and in doing so strengthens my desire to serve him, reinforces my bond to him, and helps me become the best person I can be.
I am confused when I read or hear that the life of a sub is HARD, because I am not experiencing that.
I understand that my experience may be different from others, and in fact is VASTLY different from what I experienced at the hands of a bully who called himself Dom. Yes, I get it.
My relationship with Maestro is one of mutual love and respect. I would not behave in a way that would embarrass him, and he would never humiliate me.
We grow together that way. We encourage each other. We believe in each other. We TRUST each other.
While he is, and will remain, Maestro, Head of Household, and Leader to me and our family, he is also friend, lover, and most trusted advisor.
Perhaps I am lucky. There are no battle of wills, no power struggles. Our life together is, blessedly, drama free.